Posted by: sistermom1 | November 1, 2013

Four Years on the Detour

It’s been four years since I started this blog, and 8 years since my MS diagnosis. With over 190 posts, it is clear that this has been an incredible and life-changing experience for me, and I am feeling like I am at an important point in my journey. Although I am not sure what it all means, I continue to move forward.

Many of the things that I shared in my last posting continue — I have a nurse coming 2 times/week, I am exercising regularly and using the standing frame an hour a day. This combined with my daily meditation practice, energy medicine, EFT, increasing my Buddhist practice, and much stricter nutrition has left me energized — looking and feeling better than I have in months. It has also left me with my goal of walking again intact. But you know what? I realized yesterday that it no longer matters to me whether or not I walk again. No, I have not given up — but what matters most these days is that my spirit and energy remain high, and that I can encourage and inspire other people right here and right now — in the current moment. Answering the question “How can I serve?” has become much more important to me than whether or not I am in a wheelchair.

So what else is going on right now? We are moving through the college application process with our oldest child. Taking the SAT, writing essays, taking college campus tours on the internet is how he spends most of his days when he is not in school. The first application deadline was November 1st, and he met it comfortably. On to the next set of deadlines! We are also navigating freshman year of high school with our daughter. She is making good friends, earning great grades, having a ball, made the practice tennis team and even placed in last week’s speech tournament.

My relationship with my husband continues to grow. He is an incredible man — and a tremendous partner who I am blessed to have in my life. The life we have built together means so much to me, and I hope that together we have been able to make a difference. I am still trying to figure out my place in the world, and I still have many questions — where do I fit in now? How does MS affect my journey/ ability to make a difference? What is my calling? Yes, it has been a while, but my journey continues (Much longer than I expected, but WTF!) Equipped with my spiritual practice, my friendships and my family, I am not sure of my final destination, but I am learning to enjoy getting there. I have read before that life is not about reaching a particular destination, but it is about enjoying the journey. This diva is getting a glimpse of what that means.

As we enter the holiday season, I look forward to whatever is coming my way. I have reached a special place on this detour/journey. Where do I go from here? Welcoming myself to a new stage — and I accept that the detour is the journey. Should we rename this blog? Stay tuned……

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  1. Morning. I started following you a couple of posts ago. Really enjoying your writing and point of view. I have MS and fibromyalgia, practice and teach yoga, and am trying to get more consistent with meditation. I’m not Buddhist (not really anthing in its whole), but I have found both yoga and Buddhist philosophy very helpful on this journey. Hope this is a good day for you.

    • Thank you so much for checking out my blog, and all the best to you in your journey. I am working through a great intro to meditation called “Secrets of Meditation” which is available on the web. A really wonderful way to get started (I am sure there are plenty on you tube too!) One goal of mine is to return to my yoga practice — I absolutely loved it before, and am starting a seated yoga practice with a great teacher. Good luck to you my dear!


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