Posted by: sistermom1 | October 14, 2011

It’s My Birthday!

Yesterday was my birthday.  It was an interesting and challenging day. I opened my email and found 65 postings on my facebook wall wishing me a Happy Birthday. When I first saw my inbox it freaked me out.  “How the heck did I get so many messages?” was my initial reaction.  “What happened last night and how much spam could I possibly have?” 

After taking several deep breaths, I began reading through the messages, and smiling.  It felt wonderful to be on the minds of so many people — in a good way.  It warmed my heart. 

Not being able to be out and about like before my diagnosis, my current world feels quite small.  I am not able to get out as often as I would like, and I have had to “pass” on many invitations I would have happily accepted in the past.  Being at home for most of my days has me feeling disconnected from the networks I spent so many years building and strengthening.

Even staying connected via the internet,  the world often feels very closed and limited.   MS has changed my daily life dramatically, but not everyone with MS has this experience.  The pathway for each person is different — a reflection of their specific lifepath — their specifc causes that they have made, and the specific journey that they are supposed to have.  Every disease experience is like this — each person’s cancer, broken bone, even their cold or flu, is specifically their experience — no one else’s.  To compare the suffering does not help, as each person’s experience is so different.

I am reminded of a wonderful poem…

The world has a you-shaped hole in it.
It is missing what you see.
It lacks what you know.

And so you were called into being.
To see the gap, to feel the pain of it, and to fill it.

Filling it is speaking what is missing.
Filling it is stepping into the center of the crowd, into a clearing, and saying, here, my friends, is the future.
Filling it is being what is missing, becoming it.

You don’t have to do it all, but you do have to speak it.
You have to tell your slice of the truth.
You do have to walk toward it with your choices, with your own being.

Then allies and energies will come to you like fireflies swirling around a light.

The roughness of the world, the off-track-ness, the folly that you see,
these are the most precious gifts you will receive in this lifetime.

They are not here to distance you from the world, but to guide you
into your contribution to it.

The world was made with a you-shaped hole in it.
In that way you are important.
In that way you are here to make the world.
In that way you are called.

– Tara Sophia Mohr

With this start of a new year for me, I am determined to fill the Linda-shaped hole in the universe with strong, positive and valuable things.  For now, thank you to everyone who remembered my birthday — here’s to the next 52 years!!!!

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Responses

  1. Happy birthday. I’m not on Facebook much, sorry I am a little late! 🙂

  2. Linda,
    I am wishing you a joyous birthday and a wonderful next year.
    With love,
    Tara


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