Posted by: sistermom1 | October 10, 2011

This journey continues….

“It is so tempting to want the answers before we begin the journey.  We like to know our way.  We like to have maps.  We like to have guides.  But we are more like a breathing puzzle, a living bag of pieces, and each day shows us what a piece or two is for, where it might go, how it might fit.  Over time, a picture starts to emerge by which we begin to understand our place in the world.”  — Mark Nepo

Right now, I am feeling tired and happy.  Our daughter planned a surprise birthday celebration for my husband, and nearly everyone who was invited was able to attend.  It was a lovely event, and he was completely surprised.  He had a great time, and it was a wonderful way to let him know how much we love and appreciate him.  I require so much help these days, and he provides most of it.  I often wonder what would I do without him — he is such a phenomenal partner.  Who could have known what “… in sickness and health” was going to mean for us?

Here we are in the aftermath of the celebration, and things are moving forward.  The contractors are finishing installing the new roll-in shower.  We have ordered a new washer-dryer for the bathroom so we can go quick loads without needing to go to the basement.  We are waiting for the company to install the seat to make it easier for me to get in the minivan. 

A  picture is definitely developing of what life is becoming for us — much different than the life we planned so long ago.  MS is one of the things we never anticipated.  It has made such a difference on this journey, but in reality, this journey is so very different than we ever imagined.  We have been blessed with 2 children.  Both our fathers have passed away, and our mothers are both close and physically nearby.  We have been in the same house for 16 years (and it has met so many of our needs — even before we knew that we would have them).  Although I am not able to work, my husband is a trusted and respected manager with over 30 years with the same employer, (thank goodness for the insurance!).  I can go on, but the point is that the picture does continue to develop. 

Mark Nepo’s quote reminded me this morning — as each part of the picture develops I am learning more about my evolving place in the world.  This is not easy for me, as I am a person who likes to know the entire picture rather than just a part.  Perhaps that is some of my lesson — to become more comfortable with the journey rather than knowing the destination ahead of time.  Who knows where I might end up — clearly not where I had planned on being, but the place might be very special!


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