Posted by: sistermom1 | May 30, 2011

There’s No Avoiding the Lesson

First of all, thanks to everyone for following up with me for the past couple of weeks.  My last entry was very challenging for me to re-read, and I really appreciate the care and concern that regular readers of this blog have shown me.  To put it bluntly, it’s a much better day!  (Or to put it another way, “Winter always turns to spring”.)

When I first began praticing Buddhism, many people shared their experiences of faith. They were all extremely encouraging – enough that I made the decision to begin my own practice 25 years ago. As more people shared their own experience in faith, I began wondering — so many of the experiences included living on the edge, facing death head-on, losing everything and then regaining it in a way that you would never expect — did I really have to have THAT experience?  Did I really need to come to the edge and lose nearly everything important to me to have a life-changing experience worth sharing? The diva in me really was not trying to do THAT!

What I have learned is that yes, ultimately I do need to have that kind of experience to demonstrate the immense power in my own life.  The best way to become a proven fighter is to win against stronger opponents.  What has occurred to me in my morning prayer sessions this week is that this is what I am in the midst of — a life-changing experience worth sharing. 

Much of that sharing is going on through this blog, but so much is ongoing as my entire family moves with me through my ever-changing daily reality — begrudging nothing, celebrating everything that should be celebrated, and keeping up with what I need to do to address the challenges of this MS diagnosis. 

Maintaining a positive attitude is one of the many challenges I face every day.  You don’t have to have MS to learn that lesson, but obviously I did.   This illness continues to teach me many things.  Some of the other things that I clearly am supposed to be learning:
To be more conscious and aware of where I am and what I am doing at every moment.  No distractions!
What living large really means – I wrote in an earlier entry about filling in the oval completely.  Living large is related to that — it has nothing to do with how much money you have, or how many luxury items you sport in your daily life.  For me, living large means living a complete and full life — a completely filled oval.  Really leaving a positive and energetic imprint on your piece of the world.  Not only enjoying life regardless of what is thrown your way, but being a true example of a person who creates value with every thing they do – no matter what. 

This does not mean that negative things don’t ever happen.  But when they do happen, you must be equipped with a faith that enables you to respond with courage, wisdom and creativity — one that allows you to put everything into proper perspective and keep moving forward.  This is what this experience is starting to teach me.  Would I prefer to learn it in an easier way?  Definitely.  But I have reached the conclusion that I am on the pathway that is perfectly suited for me — to teach me exactly what I am on the planet to learn, even as difficult as it can be….

I am reminded of another quote from Daisaku Ikeda that continues to inspire me along this detour.  (Maybe not so much a detour now, as what was always my original route!)

The person who lives life fully, glowing with life’s energy, is the person who lives a successful life.

Here’s to each of us getting our lesson – and subsequently living successful lives…


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